elly

2010-03-05T23:36:00.000-08:00

HI 6th march.

this would be ashort post,or would it be LONG one.
we see how my brain is functioning today (:

ok,so basically,no saturdays or sundays for me..
till next week..
but i had my FRRIDAYS yesterday..
had great great time..!!

headed to BUGIS to MAC.
and studied till wee hours.. ate many junked food.strawberry with choco cream..
burgers..COKES...

and bought some stuffs for the both of us..

im gonna work soon i i suppose i could..
and JAKARTAA is coming real soon too..maybe..
anothger shopping spree there!! weehoo..
nvr been there btw...so ..yea...nothing more i could elaborate..

if ONE THING that i could do now.
i want SMARTIES icecream with youghurt.

bye saturday.

TOMOROW GONNA BE SUNDAY.

i hate my saturdays/sundays.

love eh-lee
elly (:

ouh.!BLOGSHOPPED GONNA OPEN..

SO VISIT2!!!!

2010-03-01T22:38:00.000-08:00

Dear march,
its your second day now .. youve been quite as bored as yesterday,only the fact is that yesterday i had movies with family at home till wee hours. insane. but yea ..
hmm..it had been nearly 1 week since we last contacted.. no not a msg..or a cal

dear march,
why did he leave me behind? why now? not sooner,or earlier. ?
i felt empty both in and out of me,.
but one thing is know...is to just move on
move forward than i ever was..

i want to start of this month with bliss
i want to pick up daisies and roses,eat more oreos with milk..
take more picture and paste it all over my wall.. i want to have more memories within me.
i want to take picture with more smiles.

i want to be HAPPY.

2010-03-01T07:31:00.000-08:00

HEY MARCH ;

ellyY

2010-02-23T01:11:00.000-08:00

2010-02-22T21:49:00.000-08:00

TUESDAY,

i had match,(soccer) on monday.. that is yesterday..at meridian jc.
ouh well, pasir ris!!! damn... was a long journey hommie..
rched home at 11plus.. damn...damn..
ok..so after match. which its adraw..1-1 ..
thank god :D

GOOD JOB ALL MATES FOR THE MATCH,.. GOOD GAME :D people..!

ok..so went to kfc to eat..snce the nasi ayam was damn closed..
sighh..ok..ate at kfc..had lots of fun times at there..
talking craps,screaming..and laughing like mad jackass..
with both my bies ..
hahaha..just wanna tell you both..i love you all bies. :p
sighh.. so..i wanna watch "DEAR JOHN"
i wanna feeling2 crying..watching the show..how love felt..
sighh... so its a saturday date with my gf's bie... and..its gonna be good.cos its
FRIDAY.. yeay!! :pp
then saturday wanna watch her balley! hhahahaha!! ok..funny sia.. haha..

then after yest match i over shot took my bus..and i have to fvcking walk two dark bustops..
its 11plus peep...come on!! its dark.. sighh...so no bnyk ckp...i must walk lo..
and i got home the instance i came home..so i woke up for sch this morning..and verywheres aching... and guess what!
i got test tomorow.. WAAA BAGUSS...
-_- .. and i was all mixed up sad... :( ok..lets forget bout my sad part..
anyway who cares ryte? even the person itself doesnt..so what if i whine here .?!!
sighh,,
ok..
so....yea...i wanna be with all my biebies..and..pack my days..
i was thinking to join balley.. :) to make my days damn full.. :D
and..i wanna be in shape.. and i wanna be withh my family..work hard,.,get dollars..
and shoppp.
have my fav make up kit head to toe..
hearts parfumes.. and be a happy..
i will be happy by then..

i dont need a man.

ha-ha.

love

eh-lee (:

2010-02-21T06:40:00.000-08:00

wana bein edikY ,here in your arms.

hey readers!

ok prevly was along post..then i dissapear..than i appear now again..

tomorow is match against MERIDIAN JC.

godd,,!! ok.. sighh..then igot test in 2 days time.. :(

and mojors coming up more!!..

hmmph..

so..saturdays and sundays..

basically..saturdays,,i had to meet up with mate at cthall..then bueys,i was pissed..

then off to workplace..chat with maties..

then joked.. major joke... HAHA. -_-

talk about stupid tagged and all.. but i wasnt involve in tagg..-_-

and my supervisor was...sigh ask me lots of ques on it..

went to find my shin guard..

at various nikes..!! then i went to wisma nikies where they say all THE NIKIES SHIN GUARDS WAS THERE..

ok BLOO-DY kk..BLOOODY..

there was only one pattern of shinguards..and i was again..pissed-_-

cut it short,went to SCAPE PARK. watched the rap thingy..then head home..
ouh ya.. GOLD BANGLES AND EARRINGS(: supaa ;p

(above post was saturday.cont' post.)*

2010-02-18T06:11:00.000-08:00

Dear diary.,

mostly im hardworking today..
and..im partly sad and weak..i got so much things in mind.
thinking of it makes me really wanna cry..

dear diary..
why are things so harsh?that at times u dont even understand at all..??
and the way you are dumped in it..
no reason to breathe up full..only half shaky breath..and it make u feel weird..and
uncomfortable..

dear diary..

y is it soo hard for answers to explain?
like waiting for a blank space to be filled in with answers..
but answers it self couldnt fill up that blank space..

bcos its,

unexplained.

love,
elly. :(

2010-02-15T03:59:00.000-08:00

heyy!! sup peep!!

well..mondaymonday..
weird..but i have gret time today..
AT HOME. :)
sighh...can i elaborate anything bout valentines day today??perhaps..??
ok i'll relate ..
SATURDAYS/SUNDAYS.

well saturddays..i went out..emm..basically..ok..fine dont laugh but..
i celebrate valentines day on saturday..
i know its abit offf...but... hmm..
im not sure if it was really a valentines day after all eys?hmm..ok here goes my story..
dressed up all ard 3 plus..and then...went to oprchard to eat ayam penyet ria!! nice!! nyummie!
im..sooo im pressed!!!! sghh..1st time eating there ok..with my fren.
fren.... hmmph..?? sighh..ok..
then off to plaza singapura to catch a movie..anddd..emm..i wasnt sure that my fren had planned it all for me..its sweeet! :D
veryvery!
off to esplanade..and chat2..se funfair....whoooooooo crowded@ &*%^%$!!!
hahaa,.ok..then i was hungry again! damn!
ok..fren brought me to mc at WC ad eat..
have some fren time..and then head home..
overrall..it was great..

well the actuall valentines day was eating eating eating...ON SUNDAY RYTE?yaa..i was just eating..
and i was tipsy..for dontknow why?? i think bcos i ate too much.. its weird -_-
i WILL ONLY GET tipsy if i eat much..
LOL.people -_-
ok..so i said i wanna go home...and i bought milk incase i wanna vomit..so..
i just went home..bymrt..dun worry..i wasnt as in drunk tipsy. -__-
hahahaha..laugh it all out..!! its lame..i felt so lame that day. :( blame my system.
so..i wasnt that VALENTINES DAY MOOD OK.
i crack a joke when i was at escalator telling my cousin happy valentines day out of a sudden/...
wen actually we are guilty of dumping ourself will so much food till we forgot all bout it.

so today..
soccer early morning..i dont fake you..
BANGLA JOINED ME TO PLAY FOOTBALL.
no link..he WEAR SARONG..OUH MY SEXY
but not impressed.. sorry!
hahahaa..dad told me to go home but i continue to play soccer with him..
hahahahaa,.,
damn damn..hahaha:DD
and i had a hmm.. SAD DAY today..
so i decide to but my fav ice cream PEPERMINT ICECREAM.
im eating it soon...sighh..
im so upset...no need to say it here..but iam upset.
applause people..
sigh..im suffocating my face in my pi,llow all day...after i got tired from soccer.
:(
i wass dizzy..trying to forget about everything that happened..
and,..i try to fall to sleeep over and over again so that it would soon be night time..
and so it is now..
my small baby cousin went here few hours ago/and so swept my pain away with her giggle and smile.. im relieved(:
thank god shes here.. (:
hmm..
so...

i wanna say this.
but its . ...ARGGHHHHH!

sighh..

ok..

I CAN MAKE IT WITH MY LIFE WITH OR WITHOUT A MAN IN MY LIFE!

FEWWWWWWWWWH!

im happy people are here
family are here..
and no fvcking guys to hurt. thank you.

so ..
I AM INDEPENDENT!

fewwwhh
finnally....

ok im done...
:D

with love,

ellly..
silly elly damndamn... -_-

2010-02-12T00:35:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,..
today is FRIDAY.

tomorows gonna be SATURDAY.

ALL I WANT TO SAY IS..

have a great day with loved once tomorow.Y

LOVE,

elly.

2010-02-08T05:17:00.000-08:00

POLKADOTS.

after along time..finally..the pictures are flowin...hehhe:D

and..now im at starbucks ..its 9:30pm.. and im not bck yet..whoaa!! hahahaahha

okok,,basically..im enjoying myself here with my dearest gf..

we head to bugis earlier on..and got ourselvess some tops!! gheeess!!:d

AND she got her nike backpack today!! yey!! hahahaha

im drinking chocolate cream at starbucks so basically. just showin off here.. :D

hehee:p

im quite relived and happy..and dont wanna go home yet cos..ive done with my exams..like what i say earlier on ryte... :))

so..yae...there so many crazy sales!! i bet you!! :DD

hahaha..

hmm..so now..i wanna still go shopping..;DD

till here people..

lovelovelove..

elly :D

2010-02-08T01:56:00.000-08:00

MONDAY.

Dear readers,today i had some sort of test..sighh..

so let me relate bout yesterday..i was away from home yesterday,with girlfriends..

to..ermm...ya..to get some stuffs..and my bagpacks..it was torn..remeber?? :DD

hehehe ;D..

so.. i really had great time yesterday..!!

and we did shopped much :p

i had flingyy mood...sighh.. yesterdayy..and the prev2 days back..

but not now...im finee:D

and...we got heart to heart talk...

well girlfrey..i miss yall..

sigh...

and the test today was ok.. :p

cheers!! cos i burn midnight oil and studieed all night till 3 am.. hows that!! :pp

hahahaa

and luckily the test wasnt early in the morning... :DD

wahh..heng uh...:))

it was 3..

im so slenger.. -_-..

but nvrmind.. :p

at least i got extra2 topics covered!

so now..im with girlfrey soccer mates..

to change my pants..

guess what..my butt was fvcking big.and i cant fit in..i tot i was still slinm -_-..

ok..i was so wrong. -_-

ok..gtg...

will update again,,

for now..

busyy..busyy,, :p

love,

elly.

2010-02-02T01:37:00.000-08:00

TUESDAE.

emm..heyy supp..
sighh..i dint goto campus today..

yesterday bingo..
i had a soccer ball slammed on my face...intend to heading..but estimation was wrong and i was preety slow to jump..
so..i had bruises on my nose and my eyes..
acually my whole face uh...hahaa..

and beach soccer..i had right fractured foot..bagus!
monday..i played the frendly match..bagus!..
and add up..
mcm kway teow today at home..
dont forget my tonsilitis..
tk de link btol..sighh..
and today..i was very bored at home..after mom took leave to send me off to clinic..
at leats i got my handmade slipper..hoho.. :D
and after that..i ZzzzZZZZ at home..sighh..
and mimo...didnt texted me that much..i called..talked..asked me to rest..
i put down the phone..and now..silent.. :(
sad.
sighh..so..its ok....
im waiting patiently for my pay...sighhss.....duitt,.!!! tolong lahh../kuai tien eh!! gaji prev month
smpi skrg belum ledger..sighh
i want these pumps too..wich is while stock last!! adoi!!!!!
direct from pakistan.. haiyoooooooooooooooooo!!
ok..shhhhh..
sighh,...ape aku nk buat eh..badan sakit2...my body all aching..
u all know./..sometimes i flashed back my memories..and...i was all a pain..
tears..mostly when im sick..lying on the bed is all u can do./.and u would start thinking bout it..
erh... sigh...
ok//forget it...u know..mostly i partly love and hate what im going thru.
im confuse..to love or to hate situations..
cos now..im just bearing it all in my heart..no words i cn describe,,no picture i could show how
i realy2 felt now..sometimes..it felt like i wanna die..sometimes it felt ur on top of the world with
a big smile..
its a pinch of both..i just wanted one..happy.
thats all..enuf of all the lame hiats thats happening..and humans went the odd directions
and all sulky and wrong..and im there to be in it..like lemon..i swallow..
hate it..but i hafe to face it..
and..it sukked. a lot.
all reason...

love.

how i wish at times i was a robot..feeling happy with no feelings of love..
but just happy.
and care.

no//
not love.

elly.

2010-01-27T06:28:00.000-08:00

supppppppp peepp!!
ok..wednesday..

I LOST MY RUNNING shoes... and it cost about $100 plus...FVVVUCKKED!
FVCUKEDDDD MANNN!!
im pissed...sighhs..
its my DAMN ONLY RUNNING SHOES.!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!??!!!!AND ITS BLOODY DAMN LOST!
sighh..
im very ubberly sad..
i had no shoes to run with...who the what!! take my shoes.. :(((((((
no heart uh?? hmm...my only shoe you know.. :((
im praying harddd to get my shoes back by tomorow..
pleasseeee GOD... :(

hmmp..and im not sure if theres 2.4 tomorow.. :(
im toasted bread man! hmmph.... shiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!! ergh!

ok..besides that..my b.fiesta coming up real soon..
pluspls monday had more tournaments coming up..sighh.. i wanna handle well man!!!
can wait for saturdays..the freebies!!! i wonder what is it!!

today...i had nasi goreng with mayoooooooo sedap or what!!!

hahha...

ok..suddenly i got no mood to blog..
keep thinking boutmy shoes..
:(((((((((

elly.
(my shoe back pls.?)

2010-01-25T22:41:00.000-08:00

heyy...readers... :DD
finally again..im blogging..yeayyy!!! hahaha :DD
okok..
first thing... *I MISS MY COUSINS REALLLY MUCCCCHHH!! ergh!!!
ok..since ure here passing by my blog..why dont i tell you my part of storry.. :D?
what uve been missing out weeks ago on me :DD
actually,..im in campus now..and i have troubling blogging..peeps keep on walking here and there..
im so secretive bout my blog (:
hahas! ok heres this..
ive been very busy lately...in campus..out campus..working...eating...and crying alot..
mostly laughing..isnt that good (:?? hehehe... ouh..and my mimo...
being busy going out with me during his free days..and i bet his tired.. :DD hehehehe.
ok no doubt.. so this mimo friends of mine..was there like everyday (: and i felt happy...
really happy..
like recently we went out to the marina barrage...we hadd really great time!1 i SWEAR!!
AND.. we went to poppye's to eat!! its delllllllllliiicIOUSS!!
ok..im soo happy.. and off to vivo..and bugis and many2..
theres like alot of things to be discovered when im with him,..((:
now im in campus..
applauudd!! i got STOMACH ACHE..AND IT ACHE LIKE SHIATT!!
ok! im sad!! :(
hmmph...im with my bestie chandra (: shes on the comp too..well..shes busy..(:hahaa
so..this coming saturday..mimo wouldnt be available.. :(((((((((((((( sad!! ergh
but..chandra would be coming along to tagg me to get my bag..((:
cheerss!!!

heyy VALENTINES COMING..
so..yea.... -_-
actually..it doesnt meant a thing to me..trust me,..
how bout u peeps..??

btw my sayangs tayangs..

i miss all of you..

tagg me okehh!!!!!

elly.

2010-01-22T06:45:00.000-08:00

PICTURE MY POLAROIDS.Y

today...emm yes FRIDAY.

everyones favourite day..go out...blablabla...shopp-ed.

night out...cos tomorow saturday..and no need to bloody care .

haha :D

so for me..fridays..nooooooo..ot good for me anymore.

coming home late for studss... :(((((((

pray hard my lecture table change days timing.. :(((

saded...i am hoping for money to drop form the trees.. sighhh..duit lom bank inn!!!!

so lATEEEEEEEEEEEE!! sighh..i need to get back packk!! its tornn!!!!!!!! :(((((((

goshh!

and my shoes has holes..

2010-01-18T05:26:00.001-08:00

hey people..

sighh..monday..what can i elaborate bout today uhs..hmmph..
ok....today..cabbed to school..fvuck man...sighh..waste money..
i came out early pon same jugak.. -_-
sighh..so bsok....siang2 la i have to wake up.. :(
hmm..today,...moody...okokla....happy...at uncertain times..mad...everything all jumble up..
i spill pepsi on canteens..ok..then i clear it up myself -_- wtfff!!!!
sighh...no mood...entah la ehh.. and bestie..
sighh..
very complicated this part..shall not talk bout it uh ryte..
i have a very complicated feelings for my own too..
hmps..so my last text was..

if ure free text me back" thats all..
u knw..i cant be bothered bout heart matters anymore... if i cud..now.
i want to drift far apart already... but.. sighh..
FUUUUUUUH...i dont want to elaborate anymore..it feels more like a burden already..
if i could now..ryte now..i wanna pack my bags and leave..
leave for good.

exams in a week time 3 fvcking projects in a row..
damn mann!!
ok...no point blabbing bout it if its still not done..
gonna rush 100 surveys by tomorow.!!100 SURVEYS K..
hmmm.... im lagging.. sighh..
y..? i dont know..
u know.. im like asking myslef my own question.. :D
hahs!!
u know what..i think i wanna study soon...sleep soon... forget about everything soon..
no point if everything is all just another one sided love again..

it doesnt always happens baby..
it doesnt always. . .

love.,,

XOXO..
elly.

2010-01-12T06:27:00.000-08:00

TUESDAY.

heyy heyy readers (:
ok..so im back....only at time ya horr..i hope my reders would stil read.and stuff like it..
im having a great time..maybe.2010..
yea..i was wishing a better days ahead..like everyday..
no more cry or whatsoever shits ok..
now..
im currently waitin for my damn slow pay!
i need cash mann!!!!!!
sighh..know why?? im craving for many2 stufss..y'all dont know..
im gonna spent a bomb! :D
ok fishh man!!
my bag is darrtty torn!
its been 2yrs not changing my bag pack..
it sukked. -_-
i felt a pain in my ass wearing it..
its so the rambu2...like the thread all coming out...very veryy! pathetic.
im thinking of doing extensions.. :DD
shud i people?? :D
im soo...gatal want to use extension.. :DD
but..idk if i shud... :(((((((((((((((
ok...ive been a free life..if ya'll knw what it means..than gd,,
if not..too bad...i dun wanna think boutit also...
bestie was out,,, and im at home....doing nothing..bestie was eating with camp mates..
:P
yummmmmm,..jealous :'(

all i hope is..

I HOPED SATURDAYS,I GOT PLAN.
I HOPE SUNDAYS I GOT PLANS TOO.

i wanna be packed.

fullstoped.

elly.

2009-12-28T02:01:00.000-08:00

MONDAY.

well..ive just finish dressing up to go out with dearie bby cuss.
sighh..ive been on my own for a veryvery long tyme...and..nothing else count on my list other than manyn many outings..
sighh..
well...
you texted..but.. what else would you would do,..??
for now on... till..the days goes on,.,
i would rather just..

emm

sigh..elaborate later..

loves.elly.

2009-12-25T23:23:00.000-08:00

RAIN,BABY ..RAIN.

SATURDAES,yaw..
ok..now i have to rush..update ya'll later wehn i got home..
if it means im gonna be early.. heheh :D
ok..
im going to watch MOOOOVEYY!!
yeappeh!!
okok..ALVINCHIPMUKS!

im so exciteyy!!!
gtg now..

ouh ya..

i watch absolute BF yesterdy..

i cry..

omg..
sighh

ok.till here

te amo.

ELLY.

2009-12-23T19:24:00.000-08:00

THURSDAY.

hey,.. well..yes..yesterday i went out with dearie bbg fiqah donuts.
but..lupa nk amik gambar..so canot posting posting here.. -_-
yesterday..we went to 2 diff places.. orchard first then bugis next..i swear..
orchard was packed..even on weekdays.. i know..sch hols..but.. even people working..
adults are all crowded..
ok,first up..cineleisure.. went to choke on kfc zinger meal.
and met my sch mate maimin.. i was busy eating and doesnt even bother..i just wanna
have a special day out with my bbg..
oouh..we buy this pen.ahah look like injection..hahahaa cool..i swear..
and...peeps..cineileisure many sales..so better go..
CRAZY EARINGS,BANGLE..AT ONLY FEW CENTS.
well,bbg borong..kalau bole satu kedai..
i didnt..cos..im too frickled minded..so many to choose.. :((
got her teva slippers.and went to bugis to find my skirt
gosssssssh!! TAK DE!!
you KIDDING ME!!!! :((((((((((((((((((((( sighh colour all like dull...and the shop owner ask me to buy..
you know what color left?
muddy yellow,muddy green
I SWEAR the colour look exact as the text above..
u tell me people..wat suits this colour? diff to match!!!
sighh..
didnt get anything..
in LOVE with the crocs bag..
but didnt buy either..
ok..
till here...

*dad always bugs me when i blog

-_-

LOVE,ELLY.

2009-12-22T20:36:00.000-08:00

yeappie, im go0ing out baybaye... :D
blog at night later hunnies!

2009-12-22T19:45:00.000-08:00

TORCHLIGHTS.

heyy you people again :D

ok..yesterday,tuesday .. well...i didnt simply go anywhere...i just stood at home..

no life..yeas... i know.. im eating so many junks,and i look like one now..

but..way abit teruk.. haha..so tkpe..its ok ryte...

when january..more worst... homecoming would be late..and know what?

thats when i eat even more... huaaahuaaaa :p

but..have sportss!! i LOVEEEE sports..emmm emm.. :P

i cant wait for tomorow!! weeheeee!!! T-H-U-R-S-D-A-Y

im going to shope with moi momma... :DDDD

yeeppie ya yeh...!! ok..as i was saying..emm..ahh..yesterday..

i didnt even on any dvds.. but yesterday passed so fast..except in the middle of the night

out of sudden..i cant sleep..i was so awake.. ard 5am.. -_-

for no damn reasons.. -____-

so today...its only 12am nw..

if i got plans...maybe just going out ard my neighbour hood maybe..im soo lazy..

my butt need a chair to glue on everywhere..so i can shop and sit..

today is sunny sunshine..

no rains...pls dont rain.. :(

i damn wanna go out ...

but dunno where..

money money..pls bank in faster...

:(((((((

money pleaseeeee..

hahahhahaha

-_________-

ellly scribblesss)

lovelovelove,el.

2009-12-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

DAISY,MONDAY.

there's nvr a single second,i said i wanna give up.

no never did i told you that i nvr believed anymore.

but in this last second,last minute that i want to wrote,

i wanna breathe,no,not the hurt anymore.

not half breaths i took,and felt choked.

but breaking out from ur insanity uve put me in.

(elly scribbles)

ok..whasssup peeeep!!

long time i didnt pass by here..sighh..you know..i hate cyber..

ok..so today..i had study session early morning..yawn!! bored to death,..

but still i manage to read up already :D

kudooss baybey.. :)

ok..i shopped at cotton on like mad cow..even thou im tired after brain damage..

so yea..i shoped..shoped..i mean ALOTTTTTTT K..

and all my basics stuffs too..

so basiccalyy..ive been otp with cuzzy..

24/7 i say ok!! ;) but i manage to sleep after blabbing on phone.. :)

em..i just cant sleep...cos...emm..ya...sighh..dun wanna say it here..

memories... i used to be sleeping late aready..

so people,apology not being otp with ya'll..sighh

pp8s loww..kocek pun lobang you know.. -_-

and....i was resting at home..rest2...im healing..

H-E-A-L-I-NG.

so..

christmast is near.merry crizzies!! :P

oh,.dont forget to shop.

many sales..crRAAAAAAAAzAye ones!

lovelovelove,elly.

2009-11-22T17:41:00.000-08:00

dearest blog..

sighh..ive been neglecting you already.. )=
well... lets keep it short..i have to work in afew hrs time..so id better rush things up abit..
my saturdays and sundays was either at home or nearby library..
research research and moreresearch..
ive been missing my junior radhiah and the others..id even hard to pick up the phone these days.
hope y'all understand..
sighh..

so,..independent day on saturdays and sundays for me..
or maybe..
like always..

hey,..its ok u know..being independent..
i got my own back..haha :D but seriously..its weird..
but u gotta push urself to be self positive about everything..

and yes,...everythings gonna be alright..
guess what!,...

im going home at night to day )))))))))))))))):
ouh no..!! )=
tired...!!

and i have to chop2 on my case studies.

sighh... . basicaaly for now..ive been looking up on my self ..
and try to take care of myself.. ive realise id been neglecting my self being...
well..i know that i miss my boyfriend very much..
and i know he couldnt be here with me always..
so..
ya know...
sighh.

i gotta lift my legs and be my own man.
"IM THE MAN" hahaha
right..even though when i say that it feels like i wanna cry..
maybe i really wanna cry..but..not now pls....hmmph..

yes i miss him..
god knows.

but hey..

once i got my papers.
im gonna do a big change for my self..
its a self confidence thing you know(;
and maybe i gain back my
miss independent skills like always..

for now,..

i gotta bounce.

el.

2009-11-01T00:17:00.000-07:00

sundaes.

ouh where would i go today?
its 3plus in the afternoon..and yet im blank with nothing i could posibbly else do..
and yahh..not forgeting its monday morning tomorow..
but i knew it would be great,..im meeting love..
but ryte now..he's away overseas..and im down here possibly be..
because i got
-no plans
-i need quite some stuff

but probably im going out nearby..
to get my missing NIKE bottle..
who the shit stole it!! im bloody damn pissed..its 4 yrs now ok! and its bloody red.
my favourite!!!! grr.!and it got memories.
sighh..it broke me man..
really..
i wanna find the exact bottle..
if not...
let it be rubbery red.
red red red!

:C

ok i wanna go out..
nearby.
-maybe get my stuff
-or something my stomach wanna dance for joy.

CONGRATS TO OUR TEAM ITE-CE TEAM 3 WOMENS SOCCER.
GOODJOB GUYS!WEVE DONE OUR BEST!
love all my great mates.
and JOY,the captain..
way the go joy.. (;

2009-10-30T20:25:00.000-07:00

saturdae.

gone for good you think?? :D
well now im back...

today,i had plans.
to stay out.
to be somewhere.
to have a laugh.
to visit.
to dress up.

today,is a great day,because my prince wrote
me in his story,in his heart,.

to one reason.

to make me happy.

elly.

2009-10-18T08:04:00.000-07:00

sundays.

tmrs sch..
believe that 0_O!!

sims is irritating..
omg..
9hrs at sch..
im gonna be dead.

end.
my prnts is bothering me..omg 0_o!!!!

2009-10-18T07:54:00.000-07:00

sundays.

pyjamas and me.

you,and my love.

2009-10-13T04:48:00.000-07:00

TUESDAY.

my blog is currently dead..i mean really deaaad o_O!!
i think it would be till next year maybe.. o_o..
but..whatever it is..any slots availble would be flooded with woords..
i mean words only... i dont have the uege to take pictures anymore.its like sick of it already.
and i love taking picture when hes around as,..that would be the purpose,to treasure,to keep..
i hate taking pictures of me alone already..since many2 mths ago... sighh..
ok my rehabs patients are great...and fun!! and tired....and sad..
sad bcos its gonna end..and also because i had projects..again. and yea..
its always like this..

i love school bcos...it doesnt consist any strength and the only strength would be p.e
but its my fav.
i love work because i earn papers and the home time would be early and fixed.

so yea...i hope theres like two both stuff i love in one like..
"i love school becuse it ends early,i earn bucks and i can spend time..

NEEEEEEEEEEH!!

cravessss are everywhere!!
its crazy!! really!!

i cant handle hosp..
its tired..thru and fro..thru and fro..
and this coming mon. would be sch stimulation centre..it ends at 5.!damn.it.fewh.

babyboy youre the best things in my life.
thru ups and down..we would be around.
we shalll be like before..and u shall be u again.
we
would spend
time
like before.

always.

2009-10-09T04:00:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY.

i didnt went out,..or had the day with love..

sighs..my pp8 is still low..and i got nothing to do with my fone anymore..

so pardon me...if text doesnt fly over ur hps..

im healing..

trying to be strong still on my own...i realise only i cud fall and get back up again..

i had to be the one who always get up again..

i got 5 minutes like always.

reedeekiulous.

i had to pull myself together..and get a hang of rains thru my eyes..

even though it may not seemed real..but id try not to think bout it..

put it away..

even though i may think that ur friends may be first this time..and not me.

id try to put it aside..put it away from my mind..

and sweep that off my hurtfull heart..

i told you how it felt..

and how hurt id be..

but he says..

sighh..

it doesnt matter what he says..

said and done..

boy,.

i love you..

for life.

elly.

2009-10-08T03:35:00.000-07:00

IN 4 MINUTES . . . .

you only got 4 minutes to do what u gotta do to prove to me that u're gonna do anything
you only got 4 minutes say what u gotta say to make me stay and show me that Im done change (I'm a changed man)
Cause in 4 minutes I'll never have my girl again
In 4 minutes Imma lose her to some other man (I'll be all alone)
4 no less no more I'm desperate 'cause the clock's tickingOnly got 4 minutes to go ..

so now im down to ur 5 minutes,
im rushing straight,never let you wait.
and im gonna tell you how much i feel... but the clock ticks too,
im never gonna be the same without you..but im still mumbling
trying to get things back..
but hey,.. the phone gonna call out flat,..
im gonna beat the time fast,..
bursting my heart out from my lungs,..
and tell you boy,..
baby.
ive want you to be sitting right here back
and tell me that..
i love you girl,and ure
missing me too..

-end-

i love you boy.. .

elly.

(5 minutes,no less no more... ..)*

2009-10-02T00:20:00.000-07:00

FRIDAY.

hmph..friday,...starting out wasnt so good.. );
i woke up with no text or whatsoever.. i wonder..kept wondering whats wrong....
its 3:21pm now..and not a single text..maybe his bathing or somthg,..u know..sometimes..
u can feed urself with explaination..but..too much explaination would cause you to think
that its unreasonable somehow..... worred and all those things u knw.. hmph..
god knows how much this feeling is for you and how much i cared and miss you.
a text or two would determine that ure there for me....but..if its too hard..i cant have anyting else to explain..im trying to be strong here..but pls,i would like you to do ur part as well..
): is it hard??,... well its much harder for me..cos im a girl... the only thing that i love is you.
noting else comes first than this.

im happy for you that life there is great.

but im here.

STUCKEDD.

2009-09-30T03:16:00.000-07:00

i am a hunny bee
shunned off from a colony,
and they wont let me in ): ,
so i left my hive,
they took away all my stripes..
and broke off both my wings );

days fled when im with you..and im so happy that ure always around with me,,
i love the most when u hugged me close to u and make me felt safe and happy within ur arms.
i know i could be strong if only u fed me with ur truthfull words until my heart is full..
i love u boy,..for life..
things change within me,..but nvr in my love...how i wish baby,..i could run and stay in
ur arms from now till ever.. i need u more than anything else now..im just empty in the early morning,till the moon rises too.. where id be always just in my room... i would want to throw my bags out of my window,and runaway..be right by you again..always..

i hate drowning tears,..but trust me baby im not weak...
i guess,..everyone has prblems in family..and i wonder why im treated different ly now..
while im writing this..im still in tears...not knowing when i'll stop crying till i see you the next day.

baby..i hope u'll always know that i love you...

and it felt like valentine every time im with you (:

i miss you..

always..

i want you to know that..

ilove u boy..

2009-09-28T04:27:00.000-07:00

MONDAY.

BRAVVVVVOOOOODOSSS!! my dad delete all my pictures in the comp.. -_-
now i got no picture to post..cable lost..and whatsoever...sighh..
monday should be blue ryte..nored & etc..but,.........!!! not just now..i had the best time with
baby! (: i spent half of the day with him..felt sick and all..but i felt better when love is around..
to all peepo..sorry pp8s low..and im currently sick..high2 fever..love treated me cheng teng
to cool myself down..we shatted for 3 hrs i think..and i realllllllllly miss him so much,..
i beat all else rules..baby should have trial for soccer..and poor baby...))))): he doesnt have boots..sighh..so his not going..but baby.i told u....ure still the BEST. NO matter what happens(:

and i talk to him otp all the way..and
gonna see him again tomorow yey!!

ilove u baby.
muaaaaaaaaah.

ELyayel

2009-09-23T20:17:00.000-07:00

GET WELL SOOOOOOOON BABY!! (:

THURSDAY.im fellin blue

Today,i woke up early..ok...not so..ard 9:30 :DD

sighh..i should be going out with him today );

but i broke down in tears yesterday... bf is sickk .. DDD;

AND..im so desperate to go to his hse to visit him..well its overseas.. but so what?

i will travel across for him.. (: no mater what...but he picked up my call from overseas yesterday

and told me not to come over cross..and dont be silly.. he dont allow..!

hahaha...but im relieved..to hear his voice..he could still talk..

even though now..im soooooooooo desperately to meet him today...

and i know..his health come first..and im sooooo sadddddddddddd.. damn sad):

sighh...so im going out alone today,..to get baby some stuff...but..

sighh..

baby.. GET WELL SOON

im feeling down..

but im sure to meet you tommorw(:

i love you baby.

get well soon..

meet you tomorow(:

i love you so..so much..

yayel(:

2009-09-22T04:52:00.000-07:00

PICTURE ME FAR AWAY. can you..? YY

tuesday.
I had a great day together with love..
ive missed him so much.

gtg(:

ok my post is choked.
blame my dad. -_-

hes naggy.

OMG.

elly.

2009-09-19T01:48:00.000-07:00

tooday,..

ya..at home..the earlier on post on saturday is actually at 6:29 am..
yahh crazy..i dint sleep the whole night..
sighh..
tomoorws raya!!

OMGG.

i dont believe it..
too fast.
im not ready.yet.

im still tired..stuck around..
being slouchy..
sleepy eyes..

and all of the others zombie stuffs.

sighh.

gtg..

TAGGED:I MISS LOVE SOO SOOOOOO DAMN MUCH..

i hope he calls..

tomorrow..

ily..

you all too.

ellly..

2009-09-18T15:12:00.000-07:00

& no one knows that im in to you,..
cos no one know what it be like to walk in our shoes..

i wanna be with you..
i wanna be with you..
i wanna be with you..

SATURDAY.

i didnt have much time to spent with dearest love as he's somewhere busy..
sighh..like i always say...im always missing him..alot..sometimes only an hr..or 2 hr to spent..
then he must rush home...& i know that i hate the fact i have to leave so soon..
to see him walk fast,and leave goodbyes, and realise times are much2 harder now..
and sticking together..to keep it stronger..many things weve been thru b..

we have to break through and find away to tangles in our life..i always promised to stay strong with you and always stick with you no mater what..
clock ticks faster than i run now...im far left behind..but attented at times by my love.
rusty old heart of mine went rusty and stuck.. so rusty it cracked.to million rust dust..
not knowing when..i'll see you..,when i'll be with you, when will we laugh or cry together again.
no one ever noes what things weve been thru...
and how i put up together with you..till this far...and the goodtimes weve been spending,
tears of joy,and biting of ur lucious cheek,that always have made me closer to you.
nothing could ever measure how much weve been best together..but cakes left untouched in fridge,looking at it made me shed my tear,not knowing when 'll see you smiling eating it(:

but,..all i know..

you will never walk out
from me no matter what..

i'll always stay with you,be with you..
and love you.

yours to mine.
ps,love,ure always the best.

2009-09-16T06:22:00.000-07:00

WEDNESDAY.

WHHAAAAT A WEDDDDDDDNESDAY!

hahaha..muttons said this..but yah..quite true,,today everything seemed wrong about...
i dontknow why... firstly,..blogger u killed me.cos when im on project,ur functions fullfill
shiats. so i end up not getting great marks cos i rely 24/7 on you.so..shiat.
then im happy cos u cud function well already :DD gheers!

today happened lots stuff in me.
didnt go to CE turned up for work instead. so got scolding from ticht.
so im a chooped veggie today.
cos i need papers to pay for sum.
so i got the papers.
and im paying sum.haha..so yah..
live to work,work for papers.
i just hope everything would be ok..i got a nice tich,..i love her ubber muchhh!
im just happy when she's around.(:
but i got killed by my ca ticht.
sighhs.life..life..
):
im so guilty..im going to study hard for my skills.(:
till wee hrs.(:
i miss love*** dont miss this point..had oUR ANNNIIIIIIIversarie, yesterday
and it as great!
i drowned at the last part..when he had to bought the overseas bus,and the driver drove,
leaving me tears to cry..

he told me,.."baby wipe ur tears,..i love you"
and i said"i love you too baby very very much..happy anniversary sweetheart
ure THE BEST thing that happened in mylife.(: ure THE BEST."

he giggled.
i grin(:

love you
b(:

elly.

2009-09-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY.

2009-09-09T19:31:00.000-07:00

WHEDNURSEDAY.

wed has come..and so will thurs and friday..
im not ready for celebs nxt sun..sighhs..much undone stuff that really
made me not to move any finger or to even think about it..
ive been missing him everyday..
what can i think other than this?? :D and duh! work -_-
well..i guess i have to..to earn bucks..for celebs..or for none!
sighhs..
i cant help to think i'll be in the hosp on coming monday.
ok,..patient again..tired again..
i will really pray it wont be hard this time..
more independent patient perhaps..
haha :DD i wish ryte.

ok i will hate monday.

6:30 at work.
ok..its crazy.

left house at 5am.
you can??

i dont know how im adjusting to it..
but this posting.
hell no.
i wanna get higher grades.
iam punctual already.
so i will be..

always.

rainy in earlymorning.
work in the afternoon.

middle after noon with

L.O.V.E

elly.

2009-09-09T08:11:00.000-07:00

BACK!

made it home as promised! (:
bfore 7! even before 6!

hahaha...

had my day spent blissfully with baby (:
went to his school,fetch him..and off to amk to find where our day will end up to.
so its JP..-_-
firstly i intend to go to IKEA to find some home decor stuff.
but chaged of plans and went somewhere nearer so he cud send me home :DD

today is a HAPPY DAY.

tomorow with him again!

and of to work after meet up with love.. -_- hmmph!
i bet its till 10plus!

so exams over..but just to tell..

psychology id ****ing hard!.
but the thing is..
i TRIED.
i didnt left any blank..
so if i could say this..

MERCY MARKS PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE.. ):
sighs.

i think i better log out now.

current music:latin

gdnight readers.

love

you.

elly.

2009-09-08T18:02:00.001-07:00

OUT.

with LOVE.

home before 7pm.

elly.

2009-09-07T18:48:00.000-07:00

you're the fcking best..
you're the fcking best..
you're the fcking best..
you're the fcking best..

you're the BEST ive ever had...
BEST ive ever had...
BEST ive ever had...
BEST ive ever had.....

SAY you're the fcking best ;D

2009-09-07T18:42:00.000-07:00

ok,today is the last paper i had to take..sighh..pshysiology,..
ok darn,..i actually love the subs..but 1 thing
this year thing here have to put $$$$$$$$$$ on even paper printing..so i suay2 no money mahh.. so no notes for me..wdh!
haissssssssssssssssssssssss.........
pissed2..

money here and there..
geram TAHUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
money money money!

so today..im using what ever notes that i have...i will ****ing try hard..

ok..so i log out now kk..

bye!!

update tomorow..

& of vvo to my collegues place.

2009-09-06T17:40:00.000-07:00

hola people!

today school starts at 2.
yahh..hmm..EXAM!!0_o!

i didnt get to study..so.im making up this morning to..
but i stuck with comp now..
so..im trying my best to get on it..

i had to make it short..

i wanna study (-O-,O-)

HEHE.

ok bye..

new song.(:
enjoy.

too
dles.

2009-08-30T01:47:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY.

well,...what can i say about sunday,rather than bored.?? ):
hmmph,..god knows how much ive missed him.. sighh... D:
sometimes i just wanna ask why,..why this..why that..why evrything..
if i could lah.. sighh.. )): im getting tired and tired everyday..
after the sick incident on thurs,..i dont look forward on going to school anymore actually..lifes a crap..such hagg!! goodnessgracious damned! sighh..i just hate the feeling..hanging at school..when u dotn feel like beng there at all..
monday monday...only the reason why i came is to meet love later at late noon..
i want it to end at 5..pls...sighh..i want to break fast with dearest love.. :D
i HATE school..if i could put it that way..people change..

haiya S**t.

hmmph..

i need buckaroos anyway..sighh..
so i have to get my ass to photostap the bankbook for cash!now i know..
school is annoy.work get me tired..but then,cash + home early.
at 3..ok lahh and sat &sun to myself and with love of cos,.
the ques is,what does hariraya this time will mean to me?? hmph.
idk..i think i'll worn out a day b4 raya..cos im working at the ward.!
wdh..

but then..

HAPPY RAMADHAN TO ALL MY FRIENDS..

with love,

el

2009-08-28T08:38:00.000-07:00

friday.

had mc for 2 days..
and it somehow made me feel better after that.. (:

thursday was indeed a bad day..):

sighh

but today..

i met love in the early afternoon..
chatted.
get mad.
tantrums.
ran.
came back.
tantrums.
bully him.
happy.
sad.
cried.
ran.
came back.
cried.
home.
cried.

stop crying..

with love..

el (:

2009-08-24T21:58:00.001-07:00

tuesday.

yesterday i had great day with love..even though his all that tired and stuffs.. :S
SIGHH..firstly,slamat berpuasa to ALL the muslims people...(:
and for ever first time,i could break my fast without my family...

cont..

2009-08-23T07:43:00.000-07:00

SUNDAYS.

note.

today was like things id never felt before..the numbness in me..
that i stopped feezing and teeth chattering by the caused of the wind breeze like the fan
i miss bf's really much..and i felt like i could do nothing than just that.. ):
i wished he was here with me all the time..i wish i could talk to him this very minute..i wish i could cry knowing he'll be there... all that ive been doing today is just
lying helplessly..uncounscious on the bed..and having flash of dreams of phone calls ringing but it actually doesnt.. sighh.. i miss bf.. really much..
only tears could explain unexplained words that was pictured and left untouched to
speak... my whole heart twist like an old rag been squishd to let excess water out
for a window wipe.. but it ached more that a 6.4 km run.. more like been run over a truck..
i felt the distance..ive missed him..only god knows how much this feelings were burning
and i would fly there now if i got wings to spread upon.. i just want to be there where he was.. being there with him is the bestes thing i could ask for..even tha happiest time
i had.. he left me his handkerchiefs and only his scent i could smell and that collided with blood running in my veins till it reached my chest and all over my body..
and his lucky ring charm haning on my neck with gracefull engraved of his name..
i miss love... and i had his promise to hang on..7 it rusted on that..
call me hunny if you could hear me from here..
i missed you so much..

i love you b.
now,then,and forever.

i miss you b..

with love,

el

2009-08-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

wait2...before i switch off,...can i knw if theres anything wrong with blogger?post up pics or etc
shiat man!

2009-08-03T05:50:00.000-07:00

MONDAY MADDNESSSSSSSSS! DDDD;!

today..like always..i really didnt meant to be late in anyway..serious!!
who wants to be late?? tell me..?? hmmph..
sighh...i had to run in the wee early morning..&i thought there wasnt school as theres no student.N around
so i thought i would take my time and not run..sighh..but theres schooll!!! O_0!! i know i know..
dumb..yea..i kNOOOOW! but sigh...forget it..
how cud i even think that theres no school.. HAPPY NURSES DAY! so,there is school on nurses day.. -_-
i didnt know that! DDD;ok..just that i thought my day has blewn bad in just 1 min..
i had to meet section head!.. ok..so i met her... and i had to meet her again tomorow..
and thats just wasnt there to end..
few tiny fries problems,that actually affect me deep within to share..but no not here..cos internets a treat sometimes..i just felt bad today..
but i know baby gonna make me feel alright ;D
I DIDNT WORE MAKE UP,..no nothing from j.e to simei to sch..and i looking f*ct pale and sick..
hahaha:DD who CARESSSSSSSS??! i DONTTTTTTT! hahaa.. i just felt a whore in a hackcare mood today..
even the section head i could just lay back and stare in her eyes..im just thinking back..what on earth is on me today??? 0_O!!I wasnt up for the mood today..nope..never..i hope tomorow gonna be better better better!! than anyother days...
&& many friends plspls:DD maybe its time to haunt?? haha:DD

ok la..i better do my psychology..
if not now..i can tell you that i wont lift a finger if i do later..i will be
a dead SNOOOOOOORLEX at my bed land..

haha..

post up soon..
tomorow is soon..(:

isnt it? :DD

baby im yours(:

EL.

2009-07-29T08:06:00.000-07:00

ohh fugg..im making my way to finish my project..and this holy
fugg blog is spoilt,..
is the blogger spoil people??? like u cant post pics anymore??
used to have whatttttttt!!.
ouh how am i gonna finish this piece mann!!!!!!hmph..

is it underconstruction or smtg??

tagg me people..
i need to knw..
only once in a blue moon i can have the chance to logg in)))):

ok..gtg..

chiong project first (:

S-H-I-T BLOG.

2009-06-27T06:54:00.000-07:00

saddurdae.

hey,! today i had to wake up damn early,..ok lah..not as early as working days..
around 7:45 :DD just to catch up and meet love for the day.. (:
we watched TRANSFORMERS! rated it 10/10 .. must2 watch...!anyway..people flood at early mornings already..and we catched the 12 am show!.. crazy ryte..hahahaa:DD
i really enjoyed my day when loves around..love fled back to overseas again after that..
arcade at the last minute..
silent hill shooting is crazy and creepy!..eyeeeerrr....hahaha..but i had great funn!!;DD
i cant wait for monday,soccer with love(:

and

HAPPY BURTHDAY TO DEAREST SISTER COUSIN LOVE

FADHLIN SAKINA(;
dearest nino(: hehehe

may all ur dreams and wishes came true..
iloveyou trucklooooooooads!

ok till here..

post again!

EL.

2009-06-26T05:12:00.000-07:00

freadae(:

ohhhhs-lala :D
finally its the end of my workoholics days:DD
no more waking up at 4am in the morning and get my knees all jelly up like eel..
i sometimes do like if i get worn out..then you can just drop into sleep like "the" dead..
i want my work to be over so quick,that now i start to miss all the people there..
they are so nice helpfull and caring all along...that i didnt realise that ive been enjoying every single minute of everything there.. :DD maybe being a nurse is what i want..maybe..
but for now..i really think so.. ;D so yea. (:
ok,..then bf fled to ovearseas over and over the other time..and now,that is tomorrow..
im gonna meet bf's (: and he';; be fleding off to overseas again,that night );
sighhs....i have to stay strong man! come on...!!!! but thats ok....i knew that he'd make the effort
and,...yea..its fine ;DD
i got 1 week stretch for holly hols! sad things always happen at the last end..
like,..
another batch only started to smile at the last momment and wish me happy hols..
when all along 2 faces have been showed and had also been labeled as arrogant by people who knew..
everything changed..
in a wink..i start to miss the work that tires me most..
enemy that made friends.
and problems that seemed sweet.

maybe..
thats all that i have to do..

STAY STRONG.

ps,i miss my patients ands ward sisters.
ands love.

with love,

EL

and pspspsps,............. i had to keep it short..dads bugging.. DDDDDDDD;

2009-06-22T07:43:00.000-07:00

mondae.

Today is a serious monday blue shiat ok...half of my 24/7 working..i got nothing to do..
im happy that many of my patients got discharged..and a few left..my ahgong is going home
tomorrow..and i got nothing to look forward to already -_- except my naughty mr chia...hahaha:D today i also had a combo headache plus eye strain... and today i had
nuggets..and more nuggets for my lunch and dinner..cos i only got nuggets at home..
and my dish will be nuggets for 3 nuggets day...NUGGETS MAN!!!im sick of nuggets.!..even my
eggs got nugget in them.. ergggggh! nuggets conquered my brains..all i think is nuggets..
hahahahhaa...
but seriously,...i got a HEADACHE and i cant take it.. 0_o!
can people catch other people headache? haha..nehhhhh! of cos not.
i see flamingos flying on my head.... aiyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........................
my grannie is on 3 days holiday...and im at home alone for now..till the nex 3 days..
i miss her of course..6 days more..and im on hols! weeeeeheeeeee!
cant wait! new chap..thats what im looking forward to (;
today is basically plain..
time didnt fly today..it walked...im eyeing on the clock 24/7
np doubt..
hows fathers day people????????????????~!!
i didnt have mine..he's busy -_- ergh.

ok till here...i have to do a journal..
whatever the journal is..but its a journal...an english journal..
1 page..and thats all i know.

a journal.

ps,i miss my dear(:
and everything else after this ;D

EL.

2009-06-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

WHENESDAE.

today,im in a boarderline mood..i half heartedly want to go for my usual work
and another half at home sleeping(: but i choose to drag myself and not pay my days bck
on saturday cos its freakin %&#&%^%^*&*. everyone is at home resting..im at the ward working 24/7. even thou its not relevant..but i just wanna say this,..I MISS TEMAN. sighh
please come home fast from overseas.. DDDDDDDDDDDDD; i dont usually get to talk to teman.
but i hell miss teman now...teman will be away for quite sometime..it saddens me,..of course.
i did preetaye much of my skills today..and i could really fled out of my stress really soon..yeas(:
i will not be stress after the nxt 2 wkks,..and i will promise damn much to do my studs well..
and so as my passion. recently..many of my pals left before i do..meaning..they dont wait..
but thats ok..no probby at all .. :DD but im just confused..why? usually all of us will go off as one.
im puzzeled..ok..drop that.(: today..my hp drop ALOOOOOOOOOOT OF TIME.. let me tell you this.. drop 6 times today.. i got butter fingers today..at least butter is ok..maybe i got oil fingers.
ewwh.... :p..and i over shot my busstop..and drop at jp instead to take the same bus..
and humans there look at me like WDH am i doing.. i am in boarderline mood today..as i said in the beginning,,.but luckily this major thing doesnt piss me off that much today
it was tolerated..
i cant wait to start a fresh at school..and i wonder how things wil be then..
i knew my mistakes,learnt,will not trust,and will not repeat it again..so i knew the black and whites of humans..and i dont hesitate just ignoring 2 faces.

all i can say.

"i will be happy soon,not now but soon..(:"
"not extremely happy now,but i am good enough getting some(:"

"I WILL BE HAPPY,"
in time,to come :D

EL.

2009-06-15T03:33:00.000-07:00

ps,this is for "EM"; and all pissed maker that pissed yo fella.and this got u pissed in the end ;D

i hate hanging monday.but today have spongebob(:

2009-06-15T03:11:00.000-07:00

MONDAES.

yesterday i didint sleep..so count me awake for 30hrs. 0_o!
my eyes are getting wierder,and scarier..i can challenge black eyed panda for this..
so,..yah..so i was studying..studying die-die half alive awake..like dead fish... but i made it thru today..got tested on afew,..and the rest tomorrow..and i will be a scarypanda today again..
at least i got home early to rest heheh!..
i miss going to trainings.. ): my skills are rusty..but i had to jumble it all up..
and i dont know how... i hipe the next month im on field,coach will be willing to let me catch up
on this ive missed on.. and get back on track.. i wishh DDDDD;
teman gave a surprise call just now..and the instant i was showering a patient,my phone
vibrate in silent,while my heart felt closer that teamn is calling me..teman went overseas..
and i couldnt..let me say this I COULDNT barely reach teman there..i tried like %^&%^&%^&#%^&#%&%^&%^&!! times to get thru..and dont mind bombing my house bills to call
but i still cant ghet thrru...i cried when i saw 2 missed calls from teman..
and i decided to text teman..and prayed the next min teman rang me..and TEMAN DID!!
i pick up the pace on pickingit up...i drowned my face in tears that moment..
finally teman says,,,tyeman going home on sat/sun.. at least i get to know a day name..
fewhhs,,,..i miss teman BADLY.. really..
things were fine..today..except on the call..i drama myself in toilet..but no one la..horr..haha
all i know i miss temanthat much..

and of course my class advisor miss lang..
i realy miss her..,and cos of that "EM" made me look so bad to her..
and i didnt want that.,.im always her little one..
and this time..i want this little one to be on the toptoptop..for her..

i am ready to begin a new chapter within the next 2 weeks..
to study.to succeed..
and i will put aside STMFCKERS,aint no fool me this time.

and ouh ya..
i hadnt got my hands on air force yet..
ouhh whennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn....................? DDDDDDDDD;

ps,imyteman.
ps,i want to be the life that i want.
ps,i will put my brain on my head,not on my buttocks ;DMEANING,
i will be myself,and no more fairytale this time.

EL.

charlie ben,can you feel that its empty.? Y

2009-06-14T07:04:00.000-07:00

ps,i dont do exercise in anyway. heh. :D

SUNDAE.

today i had a long day home.....fuhhhhhh...~just like that..
but for one reason,i want and i really had to catch "geisha" on tv!! cos,..cos i didnt
catch it on theatre when it first went out... -_- like others says...it was great!super and veryvery goood story..real life summore...whoaooOaaaa..,.-_- hahahahaha... (:
and for the next reason..i had to study my skills on nursing, and to be tested..and to score..
(((: so no sleepy eyes for today.. :D teman had gone for a long 1 weeek trip overseas...and
i really misses teman alot...really.sighh.. but thats ok..maybe its time for me to catch up

on studs and score for tomorrw..the sad thing is..i wouldnt know when teman is coming

back to SG. sometimes you will have this worried feelings on not knowing when..and stuffs like it..emm ouh..it was called "anxious" ya...anxious...i need to know.,.. i want teman to be hapy

when teman return..and maybe something special for teman..(: transformer is defiNATE mustmust watch with teman of course!..thats in..! :DD and another thing..i barely

cat wait for this 2 weeks to end real fast.as i woudlnt be surrounded by....emm what shud i call her.."evil maniac" short form will be "EM" hahaa...ok this EM..doesnt satisfy her heart
that i could really do..so tomorrow will be the day that i really show her...show her my
skills i mean.. i really badly,want to succeed like$^$%&%^&@&$%!! much! and i will..

I WILL POST UP AGAIN IN TIME TO COME..

will be in hiatus.
back with flood pics.

pspspspspsps,imissteman.
and i had to prove whats wrong.,

EL.

2009-06-08T02:37:00.000-07:00

MONDAES.

i had a day off today..,and..updateupdateupdate lor! whaaseyyyy..very henlei you know..
im sick..very sick today...and so does prev 3 days back...im really hoping hoping..i could get well
soon..and i know i wont have a picture in brenda's birthday card...im sorry branda,.,..sighhs..im realy sickk..i hate being sick..whoever does love it..siao....if fever ok la...1 day opportunity off..
ive got lots of sickness in me...more than 4..get well soonn....!! *encouraging my self..haha..wdh
-_-..
the past days been great..i went out with teman.. 3/7 days...so that means 3 days with teman..
my fav silliest place and no life place will be the arcade..can i whack the stacker machine!
chao cin cao man.....suddenly it upgraded itself..to extreme fast..used to be stacker wasnt like this..dont want me to win right.,,....scary cat machine..beat u la.. hahahaha:DD
then to daytona...i won..EHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO congrats...1st..i challenged with teman..drift here and there,,,and everywhere....then to machine gun game..
i died...so what..at least i shot the some of the bad guys.. :D
left 1 freak dollar and for fun on the chibi catcher.. no need to guess..i lost..
cos i just put the money and play for nothing one...hahhahaa....

ok la..
im sick..really 0_O
i need to rest,,
till here.,

sayonara.

ps,and we'll be hand in hand (:

2009-06-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

today i had simply heartache time like yesterday..
now she's picking on my books..! dont you have time for anything else than that??
sighh..being particular on the "not important" stuff..really..today
mood labels:dissapointed,heartache,sad.
i did chat with patients there..and my mates..but out of sudden..
it pulled me down..way down..i cant lift a finger,..like somethings wrong..
but...what was it? i dont know either..its really complicating these days cos i have to put up with
exams that is tommorw..and im stuck here..not mooving yet...
i got trucks of pictures..but..today..i wont be flooding them first..

do you believe in love?
do you believe in coincidence or fated?

do you?

ps,walked down miles far beyond.

-i got to study,H-I-A-T-U-S (:

2009-05-29T07:50:00.000-07:00

GIGS.

2009-05-29T07:10:00.000-07:00

29th/05/2009

im back!:DD
its barely countless since the day i M.I.A in here..
haha..lots of explaination going on here ok..but firstly,happy 3mths hell days of working to me..
ive burned up my energy..i am energy-less. hahaha.. ok,so ive been tired and wobbly..i think im turning zombie soon..so hopefully dont happen..i slept 1 hrs only at times..cos i got to get up at 4am to get things packed to hosp. im always worrying to get on time and early..so i got this insomnia,and having the urge to blink an eye every one in while to check out the time.
thanks to my alarm clock i bought. ultra power sound that leads you to major cardiac failure.
or in other words u got heartattacked. my ears will burst andi will drag myself to toilet.everyday. em..except saturdays and sundays(: 2 days of heart attack rest. so im actually 24/7 working.. a career women. been up all day for busyness..inspite for the better.. (:
and for the 2nd reason of m.i.a will be dead exams..and study sessions.. i hope i got a supper 100000000G memory..and it wont go burst. and the 3rd reason will be..
ouh shucks! some alien hid the broadband..yahh i know wth....!!!!!!!!!!!!! ("etgwergwerbtrythhjskhg"!!!!!!!!!!!"so pisssed you know..") very childish....! and the lame reason the whole time will be...the comp was spoilt.
and i fall for that reason. -_- (overcomed.)
3rd test to chiong hard on...comin up really2 soon..and i must not let
any scheduled get in the way..yeahs......lately things are happening..
but not yet untangled,to know the truths and knowing the starts and the ends yet.
everything is in clumped,i put those clumps aside for now.

ps,
meany.wore a mask.like an actor.you act it out so well.
but u faked it.cos i know,it does matter.but u lied.
u tease me.ure blind against my feelings.no its not a joke,& no it aint never gonna be a joke.

its a scar.

written,

el.

2009-05-09T20:17:00.001-07:00

IM BACK(:

yeap,..days have past..those scenery above was taken at our staffs room back in AH.

i do miss all of them,the patients there and all,..its challenging..but its worth while.

different faces of humans leasds to different lifes,personality and reaction.. :D

ok ya..

im M.I.A

-i had to get this done,and first papers was done with,..up to the next 2nd paper and the third

then i very very done already 8)

ok,lets talk about something really random,..like what iv been doing these days..

i just went to my fav awsem place,the beach yesterday..with 3 best pals!

played beach soccer like die-die .. -_-! die die win..hahahhaa...

and back in the earlier days,..ive been on book 24/7,yeap,i didnt sleep i didnt rest..

i took 5 mins meals.-only-.

i will just promise myself one thing,once everythings done with,..

i will be back on my spot,i'll go to places where i loved to,i want to be myself again.

and not to be putting up dead play as someone else..

hell no way im not a quite person that you think im bored.uve steped up only somedays of my

life,and uve already misjudged.accepting for who they are IS important.

and were not born to please people,well yeah..shit hapens..so meaning..not everything

always goes ur way.u dont mold others,but you fit in their molds,and accept them,understands them,and they understands you back.

people go on diff directions,and if were fated to cross each other one day,

it becos its a coincidence.

i have my own way to live and transform and show.

but first in my list was being humble. and i know im not at the top of the roof

as you are,to show the world.

but iam still me,with no labels around to talk about,just someone to go thru and end life

as stated.

thats life.

ps,overcomed:D

PS,a whole new round

2009-05-02T07:51:00.000-07:00

NOTE: 6TH MAY,
-ANOTHER ATTEMPT.

2009-05-02T07:39:00.001-07:00

NOTE.

to my blogger readers,

i wont be posting till the 10th may (:

but i'll be back..and i'll be opening a shop named rampaged .

all basic art wear..all by hand 100%. im supa busy hand working..and studying..

so,yea,i'll be back soon.. catch up the link..and folloe up (: ty!

SATURDAY.

went to cussin engagement today(: i adore the ring much!!!! :DD

awh,,.:D every thing went up smoothly..but the first part was wracked up by

kids around..haiya.. DD; but the sweet stuff was singing the birthday song.. (: its lvely.

i wish them a long relation ship,.and to be future husband(:

ps,i missed al my lovely cussins,..and all sweet stuff darlings there..

my little angel boy and girls,..all grown up but still short and tiny (:

&& i felt somethings a diff..

its cute,charming, yet agreeable..twinkling laughter,and a shyish smile :D

back at 10th. :D

2009-04-28T08:01:00.000-07:00

terrific tuesday..

it doesnt turn out to be terrific,as the words could explain itself..
today,as usual,..many things happen in the early morning,..it wasnt late,or neither was it lazyness..
i call it suay.sighhs..
i wouldnt want to explain much on what had happen today...i recently notice ..that i do cry alottttttttttt...
infact..i think i cried everyday.. 0_O!
i really hate being known for the most lowest in class,..the one who'd always got stepped..the big loser...
the one who always cant make it....everything that is bad complies to me...i really think they think bout me in that way almost all the time..
as i say..
you may see me cry..watch every tear flows by..and no sympathy was needed..i dont need that..
i dont need tissue paper force out from ur mouth for the sake of doing so...and i dont mind you see me play dumb now and then,,..
cause im not..

let me get this picture straight...cos when i write..it mush clearly explain than the way i talk...cos
i dont talk alot..

im all of opposite..when u think of me..
i can slide thru redar..when u think i cant..

and still
survive.

ps,..u still cant judge me..
have u seen 20faces out of me yet?

-morning shifts. -_-!
4am! im on my way.. o_o

2009-04-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

today,i had fun with cousins,..
headed to tamp first,then to orchard next...everything there changed,as for what i see..
and the streets just now..was really quite empty...you could count heads there..
just a random day out...

today,little man didnt text me nor he ring me up just now..
i guess,his just too busy..and somehow his balance was low..
i miss him )':
hmmmph.
i hate mondays..
sighhhhhhh..stop the clock.
stop it stop it stop it stop iT stop it NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just cant take it anymore.........time's too fast..
i cant be running now and then to catch up..imean..i cud..but..i need breaks in between!
tomorow till thursday,i guess she'll attempt to ruin me again..
but helll no wayy...nono way....i will fall 1 more tear..
never.

guess what?
i have to study now.
im really hoping little man will call me very soon.

gdnights..

2009-04-25T20:16:00.001-07:00

sunday sunday...

i preppy only lovehalf of sunday,..
maybe because tomorow gonna get hectic..sighh..monday..
ok..
yesterday had a went out with beloved :DD
each and everyminute was precious...basically,i will just miss that boy.alot.
and today..hanging out session with beloved cousins,..centuries already!! never spend time with her..aiyayai..
i hate to think about monday....so monday..,
please go away..i wish today is friday..again..
so cycle cud repeat the best part..and cut those goodbye.. ));
i will promise to hang on..thats enuf (:
and the ubberly nice vintage bag..he let me wore... :DD its preety sweet.. (:
i miss my little man.

i hoped,
-today will rock
-i will overcome my yesterday goodbyes.
-look forward..
-be damn ass clever.

i'll be hitting streets today!

ouh,..and i really hope my pay is banked in.

&& not FORGETTING..
I'LL BE OPENING A RAMPAGED COOL CLOTHINGS
ALL BY HAND,

TUNED IN FOR THE LINKS YOOO...

2009-04-22T18:29:00.000-07:00

today will be night shifts..
sighh..
i could count the mins left,towards the start of a tiring dayy...sighh..
i swear my foot will ache..like M.f!
its fun with my patients...i could talk about anything that i want :DD
everyone is nice there..
so,i dont see the reason why i must hate work..hahaa :DD
infact.i love my work..huhuuuuuu..

ok..till here..
lets see if i could update later at night.. (;

and..
ouh,
i found out my tchers secret..

everything will fall into someones hand,even thou,
u might not think she'll knew it..

2009-04-22T07:19:00.000-07:00

winter gonna be over soon baby,

why initially,people dont have privacy over the internet??..
i had doubts about that too..& i merely dont tend to write exactly how it really appears..

theres always a twist in life right..?haha..yes..

chapter 2.1,
i walked to those coridors,betweeen them,..which are filled with rows of saving energy fan
rotating 360 degrees with might all the time..it was at the ceiling of cos.. heh :D
sooner later,i sense a human touch,held and grabbed my left side of my shoulders,pulling me aside..and i knew,...things a re gona be bad..sooon enough...i gulp down bits of saliva..
and in a room,where i knew..things gonna get more and more worse,i told myself...get it thru once..and done..i dont understand,why would --- be pissed,no one was pissed about me before..
and..im not lazy...im not a lazy bum..not at all..im not good with words..so i jumble up my
english usually...so it may seemed rather fake..but its not..it may seeemed unplanned,..
but its planned,and done for..everyone has different ways to start things..if ur heart allows
urself to try hard,and u feel like doing so..then it will be..im not saying this becos,i want
to start things whenever i like..or its all bout me..and im selfish,..cos all my time arrangement
is according to me to start things..No...! it not like that..i need time to let myself in..and dont ask me when..cos im really willing to learn..and scolding doesnt get me to scheduled..
cos again..every person is different..u may not understand how iam...but at the end of the day..
i will make my prommise like how i said..i will do well..means i will do it..
i just need one simple thing..its encouragement,.
if people think im plain lazy..and i ant get/reach my goals..than i got less confident..
i just need encouragement..i think thats all i need..getting scolded is not a good thing..
i will nvr force myself to study..i got my own timings..every person is different..and im not lagging things..just be sure of it..i know what im doing...got my notes ready..and im on my way..

each and everyday..will bring me closer to answer that ive been wanting so much..
i dont know what the answer is..no..not yet..

they may see my eyes,..stare into those teary eyes..
ans watch me cry...they could laugh it all over my face..and watch me sobbed,..
and get tinier everyday..
they can drain my tears that roll like a waterfall..that wet my babyskin face..
they could glare at that moment,to overcome me..while im timid...but to straight the fact..

-no,..im not a crybaby
-no, no nothing is bringin me down if thats what ---- wants.
-no..u wont see me fall another tear..
-u will see a butterfly out of me..
-u'll get ,confused
-i will succeed..
-u may think i was dumb
-the fact is
-i
-hide
-my
-true
-self
-cos
-no one..will ever discover me..
-until they really know who iam.

behind my mask,of a masquerade...
u'll see 20 different sides of me.

to save someones life.

me.

2009-04-20T05:37:00.001-07:00

& never let go, the things u hold

2009-04-20T04:44:00.000-07:00

i had a million question....... ... .. .. .

but then,i think..i should stop asking why.. i had this barrier that today
cut me off my mind saying "hey,stop it.!" out of a sudden...many thing did bugg me..
burdens me..lagg me off..and a few thousand more down the miles...that i hadnt yet discover..
and again..i should stop asking why...why am i facing all this.. cause all of those reply will be,,
things happen for a reason..and that line pissed me off sometime ago..cos,afterall...theres no reason for this..theres no reason for what happen at all...
well,....ive started my work..in a new atmosphere..different than polyclinics..
people there are soo damn friendly.. ((:my new atmosphere had just started,,
and..im not sure what it will be the day after next and so on...

somehow...this packed schedule,didnt leave me off passion for soccer..
but i had to knock my head hundreths time,cos i realise theres no time for passion..
soccer nearly covered nearly half of me..soccer is also my anger management for bold
kicks..cry....and someothers..

its not that i cant manage my time..
but,..
time isnt enough to let things rest,or go by..
and the last thing i knew..back at my bedroom door,..
there i stood crying mercifully..
not forgetting sobbs..its worst than hiccups...its like a vacuum suction that
happen to gulp down ur mucous membrane(saliva)..
and tears like waterfall...worse than thunder on a rainy days...
it drenched you on the inside..it doesnt wash ur pain..but it pulls you down..
u fall flat on the ground... no hands to reach up for..

and again..

i had a million question..
to walk left,right,front,back,north east south west..
or anywhere odd in the between of the even ..

but again,,
i refuse to ask why i choose to do so..
and why not i just stop where i stand..?

and i hope..

just maybe one day..

the road finds us..
and i'll find the ans why..

not asking me again...

why.

2009-04-17T03:47:00.000-07:00

firstly,
i didnt know,how i could i start this part of story,all i could do now is,..
breathe in short cut breaths,..sweaty palms,couldnt type this acrylic keyboards that just sliped
of every key into wrong spelling error..i had my long tired day today...and that doesnt bother to ring me up,text me on the phone..i was currently pissed off back time..i basically doesnt know what that is doing..sighh..all i wished now,was my tones to rang up and speak to me..
sometimes i may think,is this really all true,when all around every corner seemed like made up..
i felt sometimes,i wanna break down...and i want to stop all this.
but i felt,theres something that i need to know about..
and im searching.

to know.

is that,
my true love?

i wouldnt want to end up in silent,cos stomach do rumble and it doesnt feels good
and the worst thing will be,when our eyes are set on tears..
i hate that love..
i dont want that to ever happen.
and i hate when tears fall..
cos im not born weak.
there aint anytime to show my soft side..
yes,i may ignore this part of feeling..but i couldnt help,but to just let things go.

i cant go on typing..

it feels sick..
sick of doing so.

i..

i gotta run.

find my way..

2009-04-05T22:03:00.000-07:00

SERENADE.

struck by twelve,i wonder if my phone will ever ring,i glance at it few couples of time before i flung it to my bed with a loud "thud" impact.i hate it.. i hate waiting calls..the sight of looking at blank empty screen with dead respond is unpleasing. i masked myself with tomato peel,while waiting till it struck at 2. i could always remember what my friends said,a waiting call,will appear longer than it takes.so i decided no to even wait. ive shut my eyes,and 2 sec after,the phone rang. a replied. text says that it couldnt call me...i boiled. i gave up. i punched in letters in my text,with anger. saying "its no use im turning in to bed" and i did. evn without reading back his reply. i wouldnt want to tolerate the feeling deep down in me.cause all i knew its too fast. and it'll lead me somewhere..so i had to shut it myself,before it gets far ahead.. but sadly,i had to put harshness so people will scramm..but pity,he didnt gave up.

& now im confused, and i hate the fact that they knew me,i cant even hide,no,not even behind pillars.

-disaster-

2009-04-05T09:23:00.000-07:00

Midnight's burnin'

Sometimes im a missed of everything that had past,from the way i lived,
how i grew up,and even whom my friends are..everything just ticked too fast,even i couldnt
catch up.my stomach starts to rumble with hundreth of butterflies in it..it makes me vomit,
nervous,on even what to do..sometimes things couldnt be explained..it just roll like film
in ur head,and words just seemed hard to be put in place,or on how u'd start or end it.
i couldnt figure out what expression im feeling now..its not happy,or nor it was sad.
i just dont know...im confused of certain things,then again,i couldnt explain what is it..
sometimes iy felt better smashing ur head to concrete walls,-.- rather than have a feeling like
this,it really do irritate..sighh..
its late midnight now,and i had to turn in to bed soon.
i had to shift to school early morning for revision hospital lessons..
awwh!! i cant take the train ride.!! its long,....!
my legs is always,wibble wobblllllllly wobble early in the morning!and im sick of
standing for 2hr journey! but no choice -.-
i still had to..

till here..

ps,i didnt knew you had two faces like real man do ..

2009-04-04T00:33:00.000-07:00

SATURDAY ...

slept at 4 in the morning yesterday..scribbling thru my blank paper books,turning them
to one of my favourite story i could write..nights became sobber,and moonlights start to fade,by
every tick the clock went by..suddenly,i start to shiver..my whole hand tremble with tiny fear.
the cool fan ante up my creept feeling,which in turn,i scanned my eyes left and right..to be alert,
if this is unusual..my brain cells start to hurt,while the whole scenery of my room spin for 360 degree turn.. clenched my fist tight to the roots of my hair.everything stopped..
i grabbed my blanket,flunged open grandms door.
"gramdms im sleeping here tonight,may i..?" without respond return,i crawl my way up her bed
and curl to a fetus positon,and sleep.

(4:54am)im not a sleep yet el,..el,why arent you sleeping?

ouh,its a text msg from my friend..

ive fallen into deep sleep by then..

pastas for the day! :DDD emm..nyum!!

everything chooped and screwed to one pot..

saturday morning,with only mom at home..dads out to work only after im awake..

grandms,left house early today,i could only peeped thru my tiny tired eyes,and shut it down

few seconds after..saturdays at home..

ive always wish tommorow gonna get better..

everytime..~

2009-04-02T20:52:00.000-07:00

When you dim out ur lights...

No one told me it was easy,some say it go round and round like the ferris wheel,
but at least,ferris wheel looks nice.i didnt came up,or grew up being nasty,rebellious,
or any top people everyone knows..but im laid low,not a glance in everyone eyes.
i know deep down,these is not what i should be,i am those with big laughs,and used to make everyone smile,..i felt great,..its all back then.huge doors open to new world,yea..this new school.
i was effortly trained not to do that.mom says so. but i still want me,to be out there again.
but infact.i cant.ive got these huge mirror blocking my view reflecting myself..it hurts like
glass pierced through your heart,when it bleed,it doesnt stop..and just like books,it hadnt ended,
but its just chapter one. i twitch my eyes,hearing voices,i tought it was a dream,i flunged myself
off the concrete cold floor i was lying,there i saw,them quarelling,..her eyes filled with heartbroken tears,inhaling small breaths every time she sobbed,strands of hair sticked on to her
face..looking at me with her piercing sad eyes,"what is this family gonna be?"she answered me..
i have to face these situations every now and then..i couldnt barely tell her how i felt,..cause if
theres life and death,i would rather stood up for her,cos shed taken care of me since im little hag.
i was actually the one suffering most out of this all,but they wouldnt see..i guess its not cleared yet..i guess thier eyes are blurred cloudy.while my eyes are blood shot red..confused,and cramped up..in this life story im telling,ima real kid,but then in this real life,i had to take parents place as well..its hundreths time the coldness of antartica..inhaling cold air,that left my throat
piercing dried,like torns out of roses stalk..pity this heart of mine,for this cause,my heart turned cold,i abandoned my feelings and my love life.
and therefore,not letting anyone in,till this chapter,leads to a happy ending~

youre reading part of torn pages from el's diary..
its only

chapter 1.

2009-04-02T09:37:00.001-07:00

PREVIOUSLY ON TUESDAY
tuesday,was picnic with seniors in the afternoon.. :D
met up with shahin(ipin) first before gg off to directed place.
a few seniors went with us as we go on.. :DD

everything went great..

post up more tomorrow
picture credits to marrmary :D

gdnight readers (;

2009-04-01T06:55:00.000-07:00

today cant write much
today seemed useless
today isnt as good like any day
today is wasted.
today,seemed to end.

post tomorow,gdnight ;

& ouh,i prank jackass friend,i won :D

happy april fools :D

off to study (:

2009-03-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

Monday morning...

today seemed hilarious,i couldnt speak much..

i just sat,and my eyes are transfixed on the tv screen 100%

i ate,but i think i aint full enough..and i ate again..

made pastry early morning..top picture is damaged by blurness..

but ouh well..the picture is there.. :D

its chocolate cheeseezuettes..

made for only 8 bites..haha..

tvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtvtv..

thats all today..

11pm

must watch must watch ch5!!

bbye :D

2009-03-29T06:48:00.000-07:00

heyy hoo people...
hadnt been blogging these few days..cause..im verayy busayy
updating the skins :DDD
seeeeeeeeee! its done now!!! :pp
i had my cable now..so no worries! pictures will be updated soon..i hope my pictures will turn out
big ones,like those in xanga..fewwh..adjusted the blogger column like crazy already..
so today,....my supreme SUNDAYY! TADAAAAAAAA!
started with a gym..hoho..ran like mad cow,but a good job thank you :D
id done few of weight lifting,..ended up dying at the seat -_- ,or could i remeber..either
i slept there too :D .. i even cycle..on the cycling machine..imagined it like the duck tours..haha
but,i lagg..soo...i would remind myself again,not to ride on duck tours,cos i will not came back to the bay withing the next 4 hrs..
i eat alot,i also sleep alot..i almost look like a log..
almost.. -_-
i must exercise!! hahaha...gogogogo!!!
after the 1hr and 30 min exercise at the gym...guess what!!! i went kfc to eat..!!-_-
im soo sorry for my muscle..but i pity my stomach more.. :D
so i went to eat,chicken,my fillet zinger burger,plus fries,and my tasty root beer
sighh..im wasting my time on gymm D;
went home,& slept again like a log,almostt..like a log..but not a total log yet..
and i gain up my spirit,to go void decks for soccer!! then i play my flying helicopter..
which in the end cannot fly..
:D
and so now,..i just finish watching eragon,great show 10stars yooow!
previous 30min time,i went pasar..go pasar at night..i dont know what pasar have also,im
not sure..night sumore..kedai all tutop..i walk home,to shengsiong.waste my muscle again..

now,im here!! hurayyyhurayyhurayy!! -_-
because i managed to break in my dads room for the comp..
thank you :D

ok..i will do picture post tomorow..
gdnight readers..

ouh ya..
10:30pm "I,Robot" show you knw!!
must watch!!

ok bye!

2009-03-21T01:50:00.000-07:00

MY SATURDAYS Y

photoshooots!U

I damn miss this blogg..cause i freaking forgot my passwords

my bby love nino :DDDDD will miss her,

she had been busy with work lately.. D;

my girl SITI sarahh ;PPPPP haha will miss her too

had great time that round :D

my girl agnes,will miss her truckloads :D

My saturdays are burned..like thin crasp of potaeto chippy :D

well,...i got long hours staring at this screen..and being showered by all the time in the

world to do NOTHING...hahaa!

i love hols,who dont?sickass dont..haha..unless you got something to do at home..

my chores,are heavenly piling everyday..its never ending..

but the best thing is you get to rest after that..and not spending 2 hrs trainride thru and fro to ur destination schools..

waking up early is never easy..but trust me,im trying too ;DD

i had my days today with granny (: and im kinda miss my mates sometimes (:

mum and dad had flown overseas..so its on me,to took great care of these house..

dvds,cds! are done watching over and over again..im just looking forward to harry potter today..

my grandms had to nagg to me today..and so does everyday..for using the comp..

well...what else can i do -_- besides this..?? haha

had great day with bro ystrdy,

went to nuh to visit radha..get well soon radhaa!!!!
poor radha have to be admitted to hospital friday night..

we'll do some chillin to B.J

and bro had his feet pain..very annoying..

hahahaa

ok till here :DDDD

2009-03-18T09:15:00.000-07:00

Well heyy.. :DD
went to school at 5 pm for soccer match..didnt play,but went down to support ;DD
seniors did well!
-Hazy munezz,-Ace-Fifi-Watee-Soffi-Tikus-Ain-Nat-Ezah-MC-Marilyn-Yatii-Ira1-
-Huda-Mar-Nani-Ernie-

*ps not in sequence
and,i may forget some of the names,so,forgive me:DD

the score was 2-1
ITEsimei-2
NGEEANNPOLY-1

the weather as was good ;DD
seniors played well (: congrats people!

went off straight after match,couldnt congrats much of them just now.
so i'll do it here.. :D
met couslove at school,so ive decided to went home with her and siti sarah haha :DD
i didnt brought my cash and cards! bingo! i planned to eat,but end up i didnt ate..hahaha
couslove challenged me,and i have to chase after her..tired~ -_-
rch home 11plusspluss..
mum bought this cake for aniversary with dad 2oth!
-i ate,i felt happy :D
-didnt have pictures to post,promise to get some pics for the rest pf my post aye :DD

ps,i'll get over it one day (: and im doing it fine now:D

ps,i love mates,team,friends,fams,buds

2009-03-17T11:00:00.000-07:00

BACK ON TRACKS :D

finally,school ends... (: of course all little tweepwerps get all excited and happy bout
it.. fewwwhhh..
i took one long breaths to say all that..hahahhaaa..finally its all out...sitting hunch back
at the small chairs finnally came to a rest/stop.
im so happy bout being out of school for retarded 3 mths.
wont be seeing mates around..and thats for a change,. i still got soccer trainings now and then,..i enjoy it ubber most withh all the lameass there..haha:DD
everything will get crank once we got together..tomorow is another yet a tournament!
best of luck guys! :DDD
lets say 1 facts bout myself.
-i came to school just because there is Sw(sports and wellness/P.E)
and 24hrs there,i only enjoyed my SW the most..mark me..the MOSTTTT!
out of 24/7 at school.
-i will definitely miss my SW.hahaha... :DDD
i cant wait to get a start with buddie rio,dee,atika(new pals(: to our postings ((:
and within that 3 mths,i get to overcome human shits i have to face at school..
maybe this is the time where i could recover..3 mths is long..hahaha :DD
i want to seriously delete my memories,shit memories that wasnt suppose to be in my storage brain..duhh -_-''!!!

ouh ya..i miss my cousins..all of em..
my buddie,my ass,my mates,the team.

these few days was plain,ecpt for when some of us got punked!
dammit!! theres no training,yet they want to prank us! hahaha damnnn...~
i was one of the dumb being punk-ed. ok....so yea..hahahaa..
all of em got some silly ideas to go ikea to eat hot dog bun -_-''
hahaha....!! so we travelled all the way,scold the damn bus for being late,and went to ikea then courts,then giant...some sort of sch excursions,but a mad one.

i rch home ard 12plus..cos me and mimin bcked off to play street soccer and head home..
drop by tamp to get us dinner..

till here readers :DD

2009-03-07T04:11:00.000-08:00

I wanna be up there,when im just down here ~Y-saturday

clouds(:

had to went to school earlier on,for extra classes.whole lots of us were there..noisy as usual,but i just dont go on with laughs today. mates didnt come to sch today,so i went on with dearest mates atin to tampiness straight after class..
im on off mode..since monday is a BIG day for exam..theres just too much facts too remeber..
& im sooo tired to get moving from anywhere.all i want to do is just sleeeppp.. sighhh..
hols coming,& i dont know what im gonna do with hols...i pray,that test gonna be smooth,so will not come bck for any re-test-ses.. & i ****ing wanna have sometimes here for myself,& watch the world for awhile..i hardly have any space my self,...i desperately need space for that now..
&& ouh ya...neither its fact or fiction,but my instinct are well told,youre not how i think u were.
kind,great role model i look up for & bright sunny days from ur smile..
everything just have covers,like the book itself..& when it get old,the cover get ripped,
then now i know who you really is..its was never the role model..nor funny hag.
-none of the above.

& ps,i wonder how our team soccer went on that friday with RP.
i hope it was great.!! sad-ed i wasnt there...

ps,today was a very hungry day! :DD
hahaa

bbye!

2009-03-06T02:52:00.000-08:00

SHOTS! Y

FRIDAY.
friday was suppose to be my favourite day~ DD;
it didnt look like so,after i went on to different schedules
at school.i hate it MUCHHH..! cos i dont get to hang out
even a DAY.everything seemed so packed up with..
i need time to apply to changes,people,and my freetime.
but i hope it will end soon :D only 1 yr plus left *applause*
& i now then i really realise,that anyone or even anybody could change
in a snap,so better not of label them as one of our top list,but i learned this word
called neutral. (: friends,but easy& flexible(: family is still first pirority :D
ouh,didnt attend soccer today..something came up.
im at home till nights out today :D

at arab street(:

people Y

CITY LIGHTS

i'll do a flsh back on the previous days when im free on those times. Me and mates met up.

after she took her new passport up for grabs at lavender.. still dozing of at home while i told her to go on wothout me and met later.. :D so went to bugis,for our first plan. blew some bucks there & off to arab street to find mates stuff..so we wen on searching...& it had to rain...and so...., we went haunting for umbrellas..stole one at the nearest shoppe! really damn close...theres many people passing by..but had no choice, we had to..theres hardly any shelter in arab street. .:D

the umbrella look ouh-so vintage luckily..so i brought it home(: hahaha..

headed off to cityhall next to rastafarians shoppe..finally got my stuff there as well (((:

mates & i decided to head off homme early :DDD

ps,i miss my old bestfriend ;D

2009-03-03T22:11:00.000-08:00

To druggit,& everything else ... .. .. . . .Y

finally,the second attempt to broke into blo0gger at school.. :D
today was normall..like always.. & was late by 5 freggin minutes today..& it was considered unpuctual for freggin "5MINUTES".! ok..sighh...didnt went to any cafeteria for today.just hanging around with 2 sweet mates. (: eating our packed food together :D menu for today is,hotdog bread((: 5 stars! ubber nyumm..hehehe(: ok lets get started
-woke up just right,to get slaughtered for the time.
-dressed up & ran like mad goat goign for marathon
-bumped to someone,that wasnt suposingly to be met.. *suayy ... DDDD;
-finally,to school,& lectures..

i had nothing to blog much bout today..
lets just hope for my cable to be hand over bck.. ;D

till here

bye..
goodbye.

wdh..hahah
;D

2009-03-03T05:00:00.000-08:00

What happens from here... . . . . . . . . . ? Y

Its been quite a long time since i want to "do it" or more like to "renew it"
my own blog.well..Let me start off everything by saying these ;D A new place,a new life,new beginning & a fresh start all over again. it barely even seems like counting sheeps,which actually,time flies real fast more than anything else..faster than feathers been blown,or a running stopwatch.. :DDD its fast. meet me, EL. a new career i would like to pursue,as a nurse. (: well, its bad thou..i didnt have my pictures around..let me say this again.. "RETURN ME BACK MY CABLES!!!" okok..sister friend took it! and i couldnt help but bugg her bout this..i need it BADDDLYY got it?...i could compare changes..by using foto's..but neehhh..not till i got my cables bck..sighh!...ouh..& if ure wondering..what happens to my love life..?? haha..well..im no other than me..no one else involved :D
its a long story,..too complicated to even splurge it out over here to read..i might get rabies dying to put front and end..easy..i dont understand it at all..(: basically..i miss all my old friends & times..i cant get to draw my shoess,with pencils anymore,showing finger passes to dumb ***holes, its all about professional now..being professional..thats what my lectures told me..hahahaha..its going on and on and on...in my brain.. "being professional"..hahahaaa...!!! i cant afford to do that anymore..maybe just abit..whe im with them..haha(:

currently,to revision mode..
nvr that hard to be psychos,on books(:

till here :D